What to do when you can’t finish a book to save your life.

I’ve been in a reading rut of sorts. For the last few months, nearly every book I’ve begun was never finished. I would get to about page 50 and they stop because it hadn’t hooked me yet.

A list of books I’ve completed in the last few months:

  • Ender’s Game- Orson Scott Card
  • We Were Liars- E. Lockhart
  • Welcome to the Dark House- Laurie Faria Stolarz (I hesitate to count this one because it kind of sucked, but was scary enough to need to read the conclusion)
  • Rose Under Fire- Elizabeth Wein
  • The Strange Case of Origami Yoda- Tom Angleberger
  • The Vigilante Poets of Selwyn Academy- Kate Hattemer
  • She is not Invisible- Marcus Sedgwick

Now, this list might seem extensive to some, but of these books, I only truly enjoyed three of them. Reading a books has become like pulling teeth, which is like a really bad nightmare.

Lately I’ve been thinking more and more about this problem and why exactly reading has been less pleasurable and I’ve come to a semi-conclusion: My tastes in books has changed and I missed the memo. It is logical to assume that this happened because it has happened in other parts of my life.

My taste in music changed (quite drastically, I might add). So has my taste in television and my taste in movies. It’s all changed because I’ve changed, something that happens to be a normal occurrence in life. In order to get out of this rut, I decided I needed to do something drastic…

So now we must rewind a bit to earlier this summer when a movie called The Guardians of the Galaxy was released into theatres. Everyone seemed to love this film. The raved about it and so I got excited. Now, superhero movies and I have an interesting past. Rarely have I seen any of the Marvel movies at the time of their release. For some reason I always waited until they were on DVD or on Netflix before seeing them. I generally end up like most of them (except for the first Iron Man and I haven’t even bothered with the Hulk ones).

I did end up seeing Captain America 2 in theatres and really enjoyed it, so I was excited to see the Guardians movie. We went to a drive-in theatre, got comfortable, and then… I strongly disliked it. Ever have those moments when you realize that you are trying really hard to like something? Yeah, that was me watching this movie.

It had some shining moments, but overall it just felt like a placeholder full of juvenile dialogue and too many jokes (that no one was laughing at, btw). There’s a film critic that I sometimes enjoy reading who agrees with my sentiments. But one thing that stood out about the movie, was this feeling that I would like these character better in their comic book form.

So I decided to do something I had never done before: read a comic book.

Find out what happened in my next post! (Don’t you hate when people do that?)

My most philosophical of musings.

I have done this blog a great disservice. I’ve tried to be more than I am in my writing and have attempted lofty goals to reach a standard that can only be reached by those who aren’t trying too hard. Post after post has gone unpublished because they start off strong and then lack the point I want to make. They are deep and full of ideas I’m exploring, but nothing I truly want to share.

SO I am re-branding… sort of. I’m still going to talk about whatever I want in this blog, but I’m not going to try to make profound statements or wrestle with big ideas- on purpose at least. Instead I’m going to talk about things that I like. New music or books. Random musings of things I see, and maybe it will get a little deep on occasion.

As someone who proclaims to be a lifelong learner, I’m going to seek to do just that. To seek adventure in the most mundane of places to show that sometimes we’re living the adventure we wished we could always go on.

Okay, that was a little deep and I wasn’t even trying.

I am trying to re-excite myself with writing. I am also attempting to do the same with reading, but that’s another post for another time.

So here I go. We’re starting this again but on a simpler level. Hopefully it’s something worth reading.

A bit of an update.

Some of you reading this know that a couple weeks ago I had an interview near Denver for a Teen Librarian position. This was a second interview and the flew me out. For some of you, this is the first time hearing about it. Sadly, I did not receive the position at that library. It was a bit of a bummer when I found out last Tuesday, but thankfully, I’ve been able to push on and there have been so many positives from this experience:

  • This was my very first official interview for a professional library position. I didn’t know what to expect or what questions they were going to ask. I’m sure interviews are different for every library, but to know what one library was asking will help me in the future. Some of of the questions they brought up were things I hadn’t really thought about yet- so now I’m thinking about them.
  • I got to see my best friend for the first time since Christmas break. I honestly hadn’t realized how long it had been since I had seen Kimber until I was about to fly to Denver. I really couldn’t believe that it had been so long. 

Really, those are the positives and the negatives list is even shorter. Looking ahead, though, I’m still searching for jobs. There are some prospects that intrigue me, and I am in the process of tailoring my cover letters and filling out applications. At the same time, I am hoping to find another job in order to continue to pay my living expenses here in Pittsburgh. Which had just made me think of another positive to not getting the job in Pittsburgh:

  • I get to stay in Pittsburgh longer. I’m super excited for this because of the friendships that have been growing and there is so much about Pittsburgh that I haven’t explored yet. I get to be here for a time in which the stress of grad school isn’t looming over me. 
  • Also, speaking of the residual effects of that stress, while in Denver, I found a grey hair. I’m sure it had been there for awhile, but there were moments in grad school where I was so stressed that it felt like my hair was turning grey. (You could also see where that strand of hair lost its pigment which was kind of fascinating. 

That last one wasn’t really a positive, but more of an interesting factoid about me. Anyway, I am excited to still be in Pittsburgh, especially with so many exciting things happening for my church family (a particularization service and a move to a new time and building). It has been such an amazing experience to be apart of the growth of Grace and Peace. Never before have I been in such a loving and intentional community. 

Well, there’s an update on me. Hopefully there will be some good job news in the near future!